What makes you think you know everything about yoga?
You Don’t Know Everything
Dear You Don’t Know Everything,
This made me laugh. I do not think I know everything about yoga. In fact, most of the time I feel like a complete fraud despite the fact that I have devoted my career to learning, teaching, and living yoga. As I have disclaimed numerous times before now: I do not know everything, but I do know some things and that’s something.
Had you asked me this question mere months ago, it would have broken my heart, as over the past two years I have battled with postpartum depression and imposter syndrome. While imposter syndrome is increasingly common among new mothers, I also believe that it’s very common among humans, in general. Everyone has that nagging voice in their head asking some variation of “Who are you to think you can do this thing?” And for many of us, our biggest fear is to be found out for the fraud we are. Imposter syndrome has been haunting me my whole adult life, and it was exacerbated by becoming a mother and trying to keep my career afloat while doing so.
Thankfully, I was able to fall back into my yoga practice and regain enough confidence to teach regular classes, lead a teacher training, and pitch the idea for this advice column to the largest yoga publication in the United States all within the past year.
To sit in the seat of the teacher is not equivalent to ultimate mastery. Rather, it is the willingness to be a forever student within this practice and to guide others knowledgeably and honorably. Nothing makes me think that I know everything about yoga. My inner critic is constantly telling me that I know nothing and that I shouldn’t be doing what I am doing. But here I am, doing it. Because it is of value and it serves something greater than the Self. It yokes the unknown with the known, and by sitting in this seat and giving simple, helpful advice I am able to help others make sense of their own doubts, insecurities, and curiosities evoked through yoga. I am able to help others tap into their own source of knowledge, while providing them with and pointing them towards invaluable resources.
Knowing everything was never the point. Helping others and learning alongside them was always, and will always be my goal and my claim within this community.